It has been a long time since I last blog from the bottom of my heart, jotting down everything that had happened throughout the time, joy or sorrow, literally just everything. Gone are the times that I blog about the little bits of life, which I used to enjoy very much, though sometimes ended up splitting into tears.
Everytime when I need somebody to stand by me, supporting me, comforting me, giving me advices, I often find that I have to scroll through my whole contact list, or even for a second time. I couldn’t find the shoulder that is just fine enough for me to lean on.
While everybody else is busy with some other serious things, I just couldn’t suit myself into the right mood for it. I started to neglect homework, neglect my studies. I felt lost.
I need somebody to help put back the pieces of my shattered heart back together, when it suffers from another hit. I need somebody to enlighten me the way, whenever I have doubt. I need somebody, that understands me inside out. Were they any difficult?
I lost my temper. I lost my patience. I lost my consciousness. I lost everything. I don’t care.
But, I don’t want to loose anyone of you!
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Truth or Dare, a game that I hate, yet like alot – at least it confirms me that I’m not alone. But words just couldn’t describe my heart after all.
I’m sorry, if I hurt anyone of you, without even noticing. I’m sorry, if I was too mean. I’m sorry, if I lost my temper on anyone of you.
I’m really sorry.
